I was telling a friend how much I love derpy when this line popped into my head:
"The only thing I can't do is give up!"
There was a very specific feeling to it. A kind of relentless hopefulness. I tried to expound upon it here, but I worry I may have gone too far to emphasize the point:
Nobody has the right, the authority, or the perspective to project their fears and failures upon YOU.
This is YOUR life. YOUR time. Nobody is going to make the best of it FOR you.