Another mushroom cloud?
Or maybe, just maybe... is it a sunrise?
For some reason I'm feeling cautiously optimistic.
There were two awesome things that happened so far this month:
1. I and my special somepony celebrated our first year anniversary on the 10th! I can't believe it's been an entire year... this continues to be the very best, longest, most fulfilling relationship I have ever had... Even though we are an ocean apart, I feel stable and at peace with her. Everything is so much easier when you have someone you can literally always talk to, literally tell anything to, and trust completely to be there for you no matter what kind of day you've had. Honesty, folks... honesty is incredibly important to a relationship. You can't hide anything or it won't work. If you have to hide anything... it won't work.
2. I had a job interview! A JOB INTERVIEW! This past Tuesday! I didn't just slam dunk -- I SHATTERED THE BACKBOARD! It was amazing how much they clicked with me! It's a nonprofit setting up shop in Springfield to offer non-critical support to people who are either recovering from substance abuse issues, or are afflicted with a mental illness. They do this in two ways: providing helpers for every day tasks in a client's home, or offering a warm-line (which is like a non-emergency form of hotline) to give these folks someone to talk to who will help motivate and empower them. I want to work on that warm-line... because the way I support my friends in real life, this is what I DO. All that this job would do is give me the ability to reach more people and enable me to survive on it! I BELONG there. This is cutie-mark-level stuff! My mark is a storm system bisected by a lightning bolt, to symbolize the forging of a path through adversity. THIS IS WHAT I DO whether they hire me or not! XD
They're even okay with me volunteering at bronycon at the end of july through early august!
I did get in touch with my supervisor at bronycon as well, and I feel a LOT better about it. The nightmares have stopped. I know now that I will report on the morning of July 31st, 2014. I know which hotel I'm leaving my stuff at. After my tax refund comes through, hopefully soon, I'll pitch into the staff housing fund so I can fall back on that if I need to as well.
So... I think... that maybe things will be okay. That's a lot for me to admit