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I'm trying to remind myself that having nothing to write about is a great excuse to start writing. It sounds entirely counter-intuitive, yes, but the truth is we seem to hide things from ourselves because we think it'll lessen the stresses in our lives, to make it seem like there's less we have to worry about... but it's wrong. We still worry about the bumps in the night heard from deep down in our subconscious, and there's one thing I know happens when I write a letter to you:

I can't lie. 

I know you're fictional, of course, Princess... I know you'll never get these letters, but I've been around the block many times already and I know a trick or two about cognitive dissonance for fun and profit. I used to be a catholic once. But I know how the mind twists itself like a circus contortionist when it believes it's facing a higher power that knows all. And does knowing you're fictional conflict with the idea that you know my heart already? Sure it does. But it doesn't prevent it from happening... because every person on this earth has a hole in them that they've traditionally filled, for eons, with a sense of belonging to something greater. It's our instinct to believe in things we can't possibly prove or understand, if only because it brings us together socially, or enables differing societies to compete.

So I'm not uncomfortable at all believing in you, Princess Celestia, and hoping that you would, at least hypothetically, believe in me. 

I'm still dancing around the point, alas. The point is, my neglect is catching up to me. I realize now that it's been almost a year since I've been employed and even though I've submitted many job applications, and placed many calls, it seems the only outfit that still wants anything to do with me is Bronycon. I'm proud that Bronycon would still have me on their security team... but except for that one weekend out of an entire year, I have nothing to show for. 

Over the past twelve months, I've had more 'free time' than ever before... and yet I don't draw. What do I do? I play video games. Fallout 3. TF2. Minecraft. FFXIV. Starbound ... it all just kind of meshes together into a glob of accrued worthless trivia. But even when I force myself to stop, I often stare at a blank canvas with my mind even emptier than the screen... I thought, if only I could have kept up with the Shipping and Handling project, I'd be such a better artist by now. I'd be able to crank out pictures in an hour! So many hours... so many pictures never drawn... 

I wanted to say more, Celestia. I'm sorry but I seem to have run out. Maybe I'll try again soon.

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Cyclone Dusk
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Only Candy Colored Equines Make The Hurting Stop...

And I've been happier and more peaceful ever since, even though my life has arguably only gotten worse. As long as I can keep drawing ponies, I'm happy. Please let me know if you'd like me to draw something! I accept donations via Paypal ^_^ but you don't have to give me anything; I just appreciate if you think I deserve something.

If you ever get a crazy generous vibe out of the blue:

Paypal: mtd.mobius@gmail.com
Dogecoin: DEj92fFeCJz1jaxv3Jc6UK727ACCKqiP6G
(many beg, such supplicate, very puppydog eyes, wow, so humility)
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:iconsteerpikeofficial:
SteerpikeOFFICIAL Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  New member
Wow, it looks like we have some simular interests.
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wolfjedisamuel Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014  Student Digital Artist
So it's your birthday, it it would see Pinkie has invaded your time to greet you. Well, allow a wolf as my self to intervene.
I wish you may best on your birthday  :cake: 
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AffinityPony Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014  Student Filmographer
Happy Birthday!
:iconparty1plz: :airborne:
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Armosk Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014
:iconpinkieisexcitedplz::iconsaysplz: Happy Birthday!:iconpinkiepiecakeplz:
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TwilightIsMagic Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014  Student General Artist
:iconpinkiebounce2plz::iconsaysplz:Over here, everypony! My Pinkie sense is telling me they're here!
:icontwilighthappyplz::iconsaysplz:Hi! Pinkie Pie invited us all to her friend's birthday party, and...
:iconpinkiepiesmileplz::iconsaysplz:And that friend is you! Happy birthday!:iconpinkiepartyplz:
:iconapplejackplz::iconsaysplz:Ah've brought an apple pie along for you, sugarcube!:iconapplepieplz:
:iconrarityplz::iconsaysplz:And I, speaking for all of us, wish you all the best in your life and all your endeavours!
:iconfluttershywinkplz::iconsaysplz:I hope that you'll have a wonderful time and that trouble will pass you by.
:iconcutedashsmileplz::iconsaysplz:And no matter what happens, remember that we'll always be your friends. Stay awesome!
:iconponyangelplz::iconsaysplz:May the magic of friendship and all it contains be ever with you.
:iconmlpspikeplz::iconsaysplz:And if you ever feel down, don't forget that that you're the hero of your life's story, and no-one else can be better at it than you!
:iconparty0plz::iconsaysplz:Now come on, you all, it's time to start the party for real!
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mister-games Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014  Student General Artist
Happy birthday :D
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professorbutters Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you SO MUCH for the fan art. It made me SO HAPPY!
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GeekInspired Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This art is all so cute :3
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shrivak Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Waaaaiiiiiit a plum-pickin' minute!
I've seen yer art before!

WELL DANG! HOWDY THERE!
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Sneaky-Snake-Designs Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
I sent you a reply FB message!
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