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I've lost my wallet, and with it a job interview. Not that it would have gotten me anywhere. It'd be just another failure in a line of failures stretching all the way back to the horizon behind me. Nothing looks different ahead, except I don't see those failures yet. But after going on for so long, I have no idea what success even looks like anymore. 

I was supposed to go to a job interview this morning, but without my driver's license I can't drive. And without my driver's license, I have no identification, which is something they needed me to bring. Thank you, life, for showing me just one more way things can go wrong. It hardly even hurts. It's just, you know, informative.

Some people mark the passage of time by weekends, or holidays, or paychecks, or birthdays. My marker is indignity. Every so often I drum up enough effort to try again. And every time so far it's pointless. I've come to almost enjoy these marking times. What new low shall I sink to next? I kind of feel something almost like purpose in being the speed bump in other peoples' lives. I feel not like I'm beating a dead horse, but that I am being beaten like a dead horse. That's why it's a phrase, isn't it? "You're beating a dead horse," they say. Surely people beat dead horses because they like to, don't they? Every time I fail, someone, somewhere, must be enjoying it. And that, I feel... feels... right. I don't just accept it; it gives me hope. That maybe, by stepping on me, someone will end up higher. 

I am the dead horse. I am getting beaten. Dead horses don't feel pain. Sure, my eyes are leaking, but that's just something they do, sometimes. Sometimes the wind blows. Sometimes the sun shines. Sometimes the rain falls. Sometimes I can't get out of bed. Sometime, hopefully soon, I'll stop skidding from this crash landing of an existence and come to rest indefinitely. I'm sure that in the cosmic sense nothing of value will be lost. I doubt anyone can even conceive of some kind of material value in me unless they also possess the necessary technology to resuscitate me. As a favor to those who still wish for me to exist in some fashion, I continue breathing, and occasionally eating. But you know what, I think maybe I might be getting the hang of being a dead horse. 

...

Huh. I'm hungry.

Better get used to it.

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Cyclone Dusk
Artist | Student | Digital Art
United States
Only Candy Colored Equines Make The Hurting Stop...

And I've been happier and more peaceful ever since, even though my life has arguably only gotten worse. As long as I can keep drawing ponies, I'm happy. Please let me know if you'd like me to draw something! I accept donations via Paypal ^_^ but you don't have to give me anything; I just appreciate if you think I deserve something.

If you ever get a crazy generous vibe out of the blue:

Paypal: mtd.mobius@gmail.com
Dogecoin: DEj92fFeCJz1jaxv3Jc6UK727ACCKqiP6G
(many beg, such supplicate, very puppydog eyes, wow, so humility)
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:iconsteerpikeofficial:
SteerpikeOFFICIAL Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014
Wow, it looks like we have some simular interests.
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wolfjedisamuel Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014  Student Digital Artist
So it's your birthday, it it would see Pinkie has invaded your time to greet you. Well, allow a wolf as my self to intervene.
I wish you may best on your birthday  :cake: 
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AffinityPony Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014  Student Filmographer
Happy Birthday!
:iconparty1plz: :airborne:
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Armosk Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014
:iconpinkieisexcitedplz::iconsaysplz: Happy Birthday!:iconpinkiepiecakeplz:
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TwilightIsMagic Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014  Student General Artist
:iconpinkiebounce2plz::iconsaysplz:Over here, everypony! My Pinkie sense is telling me they're here!
:icontwilighthappyplz::iconsaysplz:Hi! Pinkie Pie invited us all to her friend's birthday party, and...
:iconpinkiepiesmileplz::iconsaysplz:And that friend is you! Happy birthday!:iconpinkiepartyplz:
:iconapplejackplz::iconsaysplz:Ah've brought an apple pie along for you, sugarcube!:iconapplepieplz:
:iconrarityplz::iconsaysplz:And I, speaking for all of us, wish you all the best in your life and all your endeavours!
:iconfluttershywinkplz::iconsaysplz:I hope that you'll have a wonderful time and that trouble will pass you by.
:iconcutedashsmileplz::iconsaysplz:And no matter what happens, remember that we'll always be your friends. Stay awesome!
:iconponyangelplz::iconsaysplz:May the magic of friendship and all it contains be ever with you.
:iconmlpspikeplz::iconsaysplz:And if you ever feel down, don't forget that that you're the hero of your life's story, and no-one else can be better at it than you!
:iconparty0plz::iconsaysplz:Now come on, you all, it's time to start the party for real!
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mister-games Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014  Student General Artist
Happy birthday :D
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professorbutters Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you SO MUCH for the fan art. It made me SO HAPPY!
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GeekInspired Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This art is all so cute :3
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shrivak Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Waaaaiiiiiit a plum-pickin' minute!
I've seen yer art before!

WELL DANG! HOWDY THERE!
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Sneaky-Snake-Designs Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
I sent you a reply FB message!
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